Trials and Tribulations by Fire

I am back to romancing my blog. I am sorry I was away for a long time. I should have kept in touch. I treated you also as deadwood.  You know what deadwood is? Wood that dies, rots and cannot grow roots. It must be chopped off at the right time, else it infects the entire tree.  Likewise, in life, we have several such people, relations that are no longer useful. These people and relations need to be cut off at the right time, else they become like an infected wound.  These can come into your life masquerading as friends, they will say things that make you reach out to them, then when you are stuck in their emotional melodramas, they suck you in, slowly, oh so slowly, into their web of deceit and hatred.  Helen was one such woman. Always a cynic. An atheist. I loved her bindaas attitude, when I first met her. I thought it was cool to question each and every ritual practiced by our forefathers, cool to ask questions, cool to just, rebel.  I was so far gone that by the time I r

When life gives you a lemon... December 6th, a month went by, without much ado.  I spent an entire month from my life, in shock. Denial was the first reaction, obviously.   Shock, denial, reluctance to accept reality, suspended disbelief, anger, then came grief, terrible sadness enveloping my whole being. Then came acceptance, like the white light descending from the heavens to rid me of my pain.  I spent my time doing mundane household chores: sweeping, mopping, washing utensils, cooking, cleaning... Doing the chores became an obsession slowly...I would mop till I could see my face on the floor! It hit me then. I was punishing myself for losing out, for not being able to sustain in a despicable situation and being handed a lemon. Yes, it sounds very romantic when people, from their posh condos in NY write about making lemonade from lemons. But, how painful or how realistic are these expectations?  When you are in a situation like I was in, all I could think about what h

The New Year has started on Vaikunta Ekadasi. This means, Lord Vishnu will shower his blessings on all of us throughout the year.    2015 is a very different year. I can feel the vibes. Things happened quickly over the last few months and I have this feeling that the new year would turn out to be just fine. Let me just wait and watch. November was a pain and December was just a blur.